Now, when his name appears in a memory, it’s an item on a list — not the sum of who I am. I learned that people can be tender and selfish at once; that charisma can obscure cruelty; that saying goodbye sometimes takes longer than loving someone. I found tolerance for the contradiction: I can hate what he did and still grieve what we once were. The hate keeps me honest. The grief keeps me human.

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